- ~ Nightmare over intense fear of abandonment and rejection.
Had a dream I was with my friends at someone’s house. People were starting to get hungry so I ordered pizza while they played games and hung out. I was just chilling and watching while hanging out. Pizza gets here and I set up everything, distribute it, let them know. I decide to let them all grab their share first and I’ll get mine last so they can get to their game. But when I go to get pizza it’s all gone. Seeing all of it gone like that tore into me at my deepest level. I froze, shut down, and started crying. Couldn’t process it. A friend noticed and came over to comfort but I guess it more startled me. I knew this wasn’t good for me so I left and locked myself in the bathroom. All my friends noticed and came over to help but I wouldn’t let them in. I sat in the tub with the curtain drawn and cried heavily. After I’d say 10 minutes or so I opened the door to let them in as I was ready but no one was there. I walk around the house, no one is there, I text them but no one responds. They get back and I’m insanely upset but have a hard time opening up to them. They also didn’t care and went back to gaming then started taking fuckin naps. I fall a part and yell at them to wake up. They’re not upset but the clean up the place thinking I’m upset with that. I leave and come back and they’re all gone again, gone gone, left. No one showed up again or texted besides charlie. Then I woke up later