Last night was my second dose of my new meds, Clonidine and Sertraline. It’s only a half dose right now from what I’m prescribed but I am definitely noticing it’s effects. Just like my first dose, I sustained a high for probably an hour or so. My right elbow felt extremely restless to the point it was painful and the only thing that wasn’t warm fuzzy and relaxed. Because of that, I had a hard time falling asleep, plus adding on that it was hard to let my mind wander and relax with it feeling more clear. Actually kind of strange it works out that way. Eventually, I fell asleep for a few hours then awoke feeling like I’ve been awake for a while. That made it hard to go back to sleep but I laid there till I did. There were two dreams I think?? I cannot remember the first one, the second one was extremely mundane and basically nothing. Quickly after waking up I forgot the dreams all together.
Differences so far from my first dose, besides those mentioned;
- Head feels a lot clearer after getting up, no brain fog like my initial dose.
- The general warm soft feeling that’s a low intensity blanket over everything is gone.
- Songs and noises get stuck in my head again but it takes more for them to stick.
- I think I’m sweating a lot more and generally more thirsty. But that could be the shitty dry winter air and too many blankets.
- It’s easier to socialize without feeling like I must double check sentences, if I should or shouldn’t send something, how I want people to perceive me, etc.
- I’m having a bit of trouble with possible hallucinations and delusions.
- Generally easier to be in a happier mood.
Noted in that list is hallucinations and delusions which I’d like to expand on more. After dose one, I thought I was seeing things a lot more, corner of the eye sudden movements or object permanence acting up. Thinking I saw a cat go somewhere it did not, and being absolutely certain it went there. We have two cats, for context. But that’s all it was, visual phenomena that’s easily handled. After dose two, I went to get up from reading reddit in bed and swear I thought I knew someone that had certain things going on with them. That person…entirely fictional btw, but I swore I knew them physically. While in the kitchen grabbing water and a snack I heard someone sniffle to my left, there was no one to my left. A sniffle could be easily excused by many natural noises, this one however was distinctly human, all nuances around the sound were human. It caught me off guard so I had to check around. Not startling tho, I don’t get startled by random noises or ghosts.
Overall, I anticipate that my body will quickly settle into these new meds and then after doubling my dose I should quickly handle that adjustment and be on my way to working meds for depression, anxiety, and stress.